With regard to my previous post with a dramatic title, I am not suicidal.
Neither in the past, currently, nor in the future.
I had a flash of understanding in the middle of a terribly horrid few minutes of my life. Will everything go away as quickly? No. I know this. We have a trying future ahead. Is this the worst that life has to offer? Maybe. Maybe not. But we will get through this. Faith, love, and hope for a brighter future abound within me.
I am generally a positive person and cannot abide sustained negativity.
Time to put my nose to the grindstone and figure out how to make life work. I have talked to friends in a position to hire in the future. They have my name and number. I will put together a yard sale and hobby sale to raise funds. Continuing to do what I can to increase our family’s income and decrease our out-go. Trying my best for us to live below our means and create/generate substantial funds to chip away at the seemingly insurmountable debt.